A little too late

Hey! I feel like I haven't written in quite a while. And I guess I haven't. I won't make excuses here but I'll just let you know that I met a new boy. He's pretty great. It's WAY too soon to tell if there is anything there. However, he's the first guy in a long time that made me even consider a hint of possibility of a relationship and ... I'm afraid to say it ... a future. But I'm not writing about him today. In fact I'm writing about an entirely different person.

I find it funny that as soon as I tell "Jon" (names changed to protect ... oh, who am I kidding) about the new guy he starts acting like he did when we first met. Jon and I met two years ago. We spent a lot of time together in the beginning and developed real feelings for each other. We met each others friends and he met my family but I never met his. It has always bothered me and is the one and only reason our friendship never developed into more. There is a 15 year age difference between Jon and I ... and I'm older. So he has this fear of introducing me to his family. In his (immature, young and stupid) mind they would not accept our relationship. He can't be swayed to think differently. So we determined that we'd still be friends but were free to pursue other opportunities. He takes full advantage of his opportunities and I'm quite a bit more selective about who I spend my time with.

I am a huge fan of trust and honesty. I share openly and expect my friends to do the same. So after talking to the new guy for a few weeks and meeting in person a couple times it's time to tell Jon about the potential. The look on his face is one of surprise and hurt but honestly I cannot concern myself with it. He says he's OK with things. Then suddenly he begins to act different. He sends me emails more often. He calls. He asks about me and my day. He shows concern for my safety during a snow storm. And why all of this is nice it is the most annoying thing that could happen at this time. I don't want this. I gave you two years worth of chances. I'm done. My feelings are changed. I am clear headed. It's too late. I'm sorry.

As far as the new guy ... I'll keep you posted!